Emotional Strain!

Summer was on its way to his home. It’s time to decide half of our life. I need to get into a college. So I preferred geochronology to the usual engineering courses. I was satisfied with my preference. I was underdressed on the first day of my college. But somehow, I managed with my behavior. Seeing the new circumstance, many innocent faces turned hither and thither. But I generally step up to others and so, I did it with a “Hi..!” to girl showing myself as an enemy to others retina. Unfortunately, it created a jealousy among others in my class.

Days passed, I picked up my friends. And a great thing is that, I even stuck to some good- looking girls. Later, I got all of their contacts and a textual bridge was built between us.

Days rushed! Time to perform. ‘Sarang- 11’’ my first year cultural appeared. I performed with a very less knowledge of about what I was preparing, and got a loud and an unexpected applause from the seniors and staffs. From that day, I moved forward with more success and with little disappointment. Observing the perfect code of dress I started to overdress myself.

Ragasiya, the name alone disturbs. The day I saw her, was disturbed. I started admiring everything as a fool, even dry leaves. Yup! She’s such a kind of girl. Boys get fooled, by seeing her attitude, the way she talks etc and propose her. But the words that always move out of her mouth were “Oops! I didn’t expect this from you. Sorry for disturbing you. I think I’ve hurt you a lot.” I gave my performance several times, not just for fame but to impress her. After listening to her negative nods to the proposals that reached her, I cropped the idea of proposing her. But I was absolutely sure of a thing that more messages that travel out of her mobile enter mine. To my perspective, the bridge between us was built with affection despite textual.

Greatest achievement of a boy is simply, a girl! I gained some energy, freshness and a lot more from texting her. At times that energy would feed my mind and move my finger zigzag to type the three exceptionally skilled words “I love you!” but simultaneously conscious would rub it. This continued for a long portion of time and I started to hate that intense feeling of deep affection.

The thing, which I hated the most, dug and settled deep in my mind and made me not to work, not to listen to my parents, my class, my classmates, and even it erased the authentic rules, sculptured in my mind, which must be followed while driving a vehicle. Things appeared different to me.

It was a glittering star-filled night with cleared black sky. Everyone was off to bed in my house. But I couldn’t sleep that night. Clock struck 12 and could hear a beep sound from my mobile. Words which were in my mind came to me via text. “Heh! I couldn’t sleep.” I was stunned to see that message as it was from ‘R-a-g-a-s-i-y-a’. After moving a message “Consult a doctor... He he! J”, a mixture of plus and minus thoughts were swirling in my mind.

“Bye!” was the next one to enter my inbox. After pushing some of my messages to her inbox against the problem of unavailability of radio waves, I didn’t get any reply from her. Then my nerves started to get inactive and I was in half sleep with an expectation of not the remaining half of the sleep but her message.

The minute and hour hand was on 2 mentioning that the time was ten past two; a small beep sound entered my ear which was like a large bowl of coffee that makes a person active. I was sitting on the bed with legs folded searching my mobile in a hurry.

I got my mobile and opened the new message without knowing that was a message from Ragasiya...

It was loading...

Loading...

And still loading... for 20 seconds.

I could see only the name at the top “Ragasiya” and a blank screen... L

Unusually, I pressed the down button.

I could see a sentence comprised of three words... “I L-o-v-e Y-o-u”

I tightly covered my mobile inside my palm and couldn’t believe my eyes. Cool breeze from the window fanned one side of my face. I was pushed and pulled from a state of unconscious and was astonished. My eye sight was collapsed as it went black and returned back normal. I could see the night lamp glowing so bright and green and could hear her voice in my room.

I saw the wall, there written “I L-o-v-e Y-o-u” and admired it for a length of time and was able to see “Ragasiya” sharing her three words to me under a green tree with orange colored tops and white colored bottom with a netted white shall, because I saw her in the same outfit last day. It was a perfect hallucination! I heard a knocking sound and moved towards the door and opened it by holding the handle in a frozen condition. To my surprise, it was “Ragasiya”. She said nothing but a “Hai!” similar to the one that I heard at our first meet. Stepped in, came closer to me to “kiss!” My legs, hands, my whole body started to do unexpected movements probably a wobbling movement and it was jittery too. My tongue got stuck and I couldn’t open my mouth. My lips were dried and my teeth typed helpless words inside my mouth. Lesser than an inch of distance was there between our lips. Suddenly a big solid kind of thing struck my head and the part where it struck in my head went white. When I raised my head up, I could only see some equations and could hear a terrible shout “Class uh gavuni! Illana vella po...” Then, I rubbed my hair. Keeping my face sad, started to listen the class as it was the first day of my college and Ragasiya was one of the students of our class. But I had the times of my life with her in my dream. This pushed me to a state of being tensed or something like a kind of Emotional Strain!!!